My favorite albums that are all hits, no misses (part I)... aka... music is an amazing and mysterious thing...

Wow, it’s been a while. Sorry, internet friends. July was such a hectic month. From rehearsals for shows, to prepping for my trip back to WI by getting two extra weeks worth of work done beforehand, to driving to and from WI and getting to spend some time with my brother for the first time in almost three year; July was a hell of a month. Also had some really fun shows but man did July come with counter-punches. I blew out a tire in the middle of nowhere Indiana (it was pretty much my fault though, so…), learned how to put on a spare and got to spend a morning at a Pep Boys (thank you Pep Boys in Franklin, IN for bumping me up in the queue so I could get back on the road that afternoon). It also turns out driving 9 hours a day is not fun and not a thing that someone with ADHD, at least in my case, is good at. And one thing I’ve learned by driving the 1000+ miles to WI and the 1000+ back is that Joe Biden better get this infrastructure bill passed soon because our roads suck. And can someone please figure out a way to not have to drive right through Chicago when passing by? I can’t believe there’s not a bypass to go around that fucking mess of city. Of course, most of my hatred for Chicago comes from the Bears and the Cubs, so… I actually have a lot of fun whenever I visit.

Oh, and I got Covid for a second time during the trip. Luckily, because of the vaccine, I barely noticed and had only one day where I felt sorta blah. It mostly felt like maybe I worked out a little too hard the day before or had one too many the night before. But I knew something was up when my apartment got to 80 degrees and I didn’t feel warm; so I guess I had a minor fever too. But with my two bouts of Covid and two shots, I should be done with this until next year, I hope, maybe, please (knocks on wood)… Last year, it leveled me and I was out for 3-4 days where I could barely eat or sleep between the fever, nausea, excruciating muscle pain, etc. so it seems like the jab did its job. Stay safe people…

Anyways, I wanted to take my mind off of all that today and just talk music. Specifically, a really fun question my brother recently posed to me: what are your top albums that you consider all hits and no misses? Basically, your favorite albums start to finish. I definitely had to think for a few minutes on that one. Then, I thought some more. Then, I decided I’d jump on here and suss out my thoughts because why waste time researching and putting together a definitive list when you can just see what the first ones that come to mind are? Yeah, that sounds more like the Bradley Wik way. I’m either all in or all out. Either I spend the next week researching this or I just go for it. Nike has spent millions of dollars insisting I “just do it” so I guess I’ll take that advice today.

No research needed for the first ones on this list as they’re my 2 favorite records of all-time. I’ll probably end up writing two or three of these blog posts as I know I tend to get long winded when I’m writing about my favorite music. I’ll be listing my favorite and least favorite song from the album and I’ll be giving an explanation as to why each album is on the list. I’ll also be covering what the album means to me as a piece of art in conjunction with when it came into my life. Context has proven to mean a lot to me in regards to my love of certain music. As it is with falling in love and trying to pick out fruit, timing can be everything.

Born to Run - Bruce Springsteen

Favorite song: Born to Run

Least favorite song: Meeting Across the River

Where better to start than with my favorite album of all-time? My love for this album runs deep. It was a transformational album in my life and probably the main reason I play Rock ‘n’ Roll music today. I’ve written at length about how this album was my madeleine-dipped-in-tea moment. If you’re not a fan of Proust, and most aren’t, what I mean by that is listening to Born to Run for the first time made my brain explode with all sorts of new thoughts and emotions that I had never experienced before. I couldn’t fathom what was happening. I felt overwhelmed with a newfound joy that had been stirred up inside me.

For context, I think I was 16 years old. I had likely heard the song Born to Run on the radio at some point but never really listened to Bruce until then. I had just gotten my grandma’s old turntable (one of those huge wooden ones with the speakers built in where you can close the lid and use it as a buffet table during Christmas or Thanksgiving gatherings…) and Born to Run was one of the few records I grabbed from my mom’s collection to test it out. I’ll never forget the first time I played that album. I put the album on upside down so the song Born to Run instantly came bursting out of the speakers. I had never really listened to vinyl, so not only was the music blowing me away but the sound was as well. I closed my eyes. Everything sounded so real and three dimensional and it felt like Bruce and the band were playing right there in my tiny bedroom. I probably listened to that record a dozen more times that day. The music, the stories, the production; everything was just perfect. Well, except I wasn’t immediately in love with Meeting Across the River. That one took some time to come around on. But, I’ve come to love it and can’t imagine this album without it now. You need that jazzy little story-driven vignette before launching into the epicness of Jungleland.

Born to Run was the record that made me want to be a Rock ‘n’ Roll bandleader. Up until then, I was determined to become the next Angus Young. I had no natural talent for music in any form but figured with enough work I could learn the guitar. I knew I would never be Jimi Hendrix since I had no natural talent but Angus seemed a little more achievable. You know? Just one of the greatest Rock guitarists of all-time but not the greatest. I had reasonable expectations for myself….

But when I heard Bruce, I wanted to sing. Only I had never really thought about doing that before. And that was for one simple reason: I couldn’t sing. Like, at all. And when I say I couldn’t sing, I really, really mean I couldn’t sing. So, how was I going to learn how to sing? Join the choir or hire a teacher and learn scales and shit? This is Rock ‘n’ Roll. My plan was simple: I played Bruce Springsteen records and tried to emulate him. I focused on his live albums the most. And I did this for hours and hours on end, almost every day for years. It’s no wonder that after one of my first shows with a band, someone gave us a review (which is weird to say now. Do people still do live show reviews? Are there still any local music/arts newspapers with people dedicated to live music?) where they said I was a cheap Springsteen knockoff that needed to figure out why anyone should listen to me instead of the real thing. My bandmates thought I’d be crushed. I wasn’t. I thought getting even to the level of “cheap Springsteen knockoff” was an achievement unto itself considering where I had started, which was as a guy who was all thumbs on the guitar and whose singing might be rightfully misidentified as someone being tortured, when, in fact, it was I who was torturing them with my horrendous caterwauling.

But, I’ve written so much about Springsteen over the years, I’m just gonna stop there and make this entry short and sweet. If you want to read a (very) long account of why I love this album and why I play music in general, you can find that HERE. It’s probably the best blog post I’ve written so it’s probably worth a few minutes of your time.

Blood on the Tracks - Bob Dylan

Favorite song: Idiot Wind

Least favorite song: Meet Me in the Morning

Anyone who tries to convince you that Blonde on Blonde or Freewheelin’ or Bringing It All Back Home or Highway 61 Revisited is better than this album is nuts. I’m just going to start there. Blood on the Tracks is hands down the greatest Dylan record there is. I’ll accept if you prefer another album and I’ll hear your arguments, and probably even agree with some of them. Hell, I probably put on Blonde on Blonde more than this album. Though lately, I’ve been on more of a Highway 61 kick. But every time I come back to Blood on the Tracks, I’m blown away by how amazing this album truly is. That’s why it’s #2 on my all-time list, just slightly edging out another Springsteen album, Darkness on the Edge of Town, for that spot.

I got really into Dylan in middle school and then became full on obsessed by the time I got to high school. Before Dylan, I liked music but spent more of of my free time reading rather than listening to music. Kurt Vonnegut was my first non-sports hero. I gobbled up his books at breakneck pace, eventually coming to own what I think is every book he wrote. I was fascinated by the way he told his stories and how he created his worlds. His characters, even the minor ones, were just so fucking interesting. There’s more than a few of his books that would make my top 25 books of all-time, if I ever made such a list. I didn’t think anyone had a better grasp of the English language or could manipulate it in such magical ways…until I heard Bob Dylan.

Like a lot of people, my first dalliance with Dylan was probably via Knockin’ on Heaven’s Door or Like a Rolling Stone being played on the radio. And while those songs typify Dylan to many, they didn’t quite grab me initially. I love both songs now and have actually covered both in bands over the years, but at the time they just didn’t quite pop for me. Knockin’ was an out of context song from a movie soundtrack and the grandiosity of Like a Rolling Stone didn’t really come through the 3” speaker on my little radio. But then I heard Mr. Tambourine Man. Everything changed. The simplicity of the guitar under that mountain of poetic imagery stopped me in my tracks. I had to hear more of this.

Sorry this just popped into my head and I wanted to tell you before I forgot. Here’s a funny example of the way my Asperger’s brain works sometimes. It might seem meandering but that’s how my brain works.

We didn’t have a lot of money when I was growing up so I didn’t really own many CD’s until I was like 14 or 15 and I could afford to buy them myself. And I never really got into Napster and the whole illegal music thing. I would eventually download my fair share of music but it was mostly live bootlegs or like the weird European re-release of something that featured an extra song or two. So, if I wanted to hear a song on demand, I had to do the old school wait until a song was on the radio and tape it. After I had heard Mr. Tambourine Man I wanted to get that one on a tape as soon as possible. So, every day when I got home from school, I ran upstairs and flipped on my radio and waited for it to come on. I listened and listened and listened but it didn’t come on again for days, might have even been weeks. Then one day I was vacuuming the stairs and heard that opening chorus coming from the stereo in my room. But I couldn’t leave the vacuum as it would fall down the stairs so I had to shut off the vacuum run it back down the stairs and then sprint back up the stairs to hit the record button. If stair climbing was an Olympic sport I could’ve medalled that day. But, because I had to do that I missed recording that opening chorus. Now, that was probably 15 or 16 years ago at this point and that tape is long gone, but to this day when I play Mr. Tambourine Man live at shows, which I do sometimes, I sometimes forget to play that first chorus because that’s the way my brain remembers it from that stupid fucking tape. Anyways, back to Dylan.

I decided to start listening to all of his records in chronological order. It’s something I’ve done with a few bands now and it’s a really interesting way to consume a catalog. It’s like you’re taking the artistic journey along with the artist but on a super sped up timeline. I’ll start with their debut album and listen to nothing but that album for like two weeks or a month, depending on how much I like it, then move on to the next one and then the next one. Of all the artists I’ve done this with, Dylan’s artistic journey was the most fascinating, with the Beatles probably number two behind him. From those early folk standards and his own cheap knockoff imitations of them to then becoming the greatest folk singer of all-time. Then, there’s that incredible mid-60’s run up until his motorcycle accident. Then he comes back with a new voice and a country record. Then he puts out a couple of albums that are incredibly mediocre and it seems like he’s forgotten how to write a song (the one exception I’ll give to those records is they did spawn The Man in Me, which is a song I can’t imagine the Big Lebowski without. So, worth it, I guess?). Then he hides away in upstate New York and has that enormous set of bootlegs and releases some live stuff. Then almost out of nowhere this album hits. It’s almost ten years between Blonde on Blonde and Blood on the Tracks. It sure seemed like he had lost his fastball and was just going to be a good but not great songwriter the rest of his career. Sure, John Wesley Harding has some great moments, Nashville Skyline is fun and Self Portrait and New Morning…um, exist…but none are even in the same league as Blonde on Blonde and those earlier records. So, when I came upon this I was on the verge of giving up on his stuff post the 60’s. I’m so glad I didn’t. I had heard that this was a great one but after those other records I started questioning the people who kept telling me to just wait until I get to Blood on the Tracks, I’ll love it.

Blood on the Tracks redefined what I thought folk and folk-rock music could be. I didn’t know this level existed. He somehow found his old level of songwriting, with all that incredible imagery and storytelling, and added in so much more emotion and soul to it (I’m sure writing an album about your recent divorce would bring that out of you). His characters became much more human and multi-dimensional, rather than just another Ophelia ‘neath a window or an updated John the Baptist after torturing a thief. I could really feel the stories he was telling on this album; which itself is not an easy thing for a person with Asperger’s, such as myself. And the way he balanced those stripped down, emotional songs from the New York session with the more upbeat band tunes he did in Minneapolis is just perfect. I’m really big into the track sequencing of albums and this is one of the best, if not the best, out there in terms of not only getting the right songs but using the order of them to tell a story unto itself.

One of the other thing that makes this album so great is that I can’t picture most of these songs on a different album. These tunes are so unique and they can only exist on Blood on the Tracks. Sure, there’s a couple of his more standard fare in Lily, Rosemary and the Jack of Hearts and Meet Me in the Morning, but I can’t picture the others in any other packaging.

I could write an entire blog post just about this album, and I practically have, so I think I’ll end it there.

So, those are the first two. I have at least a few more in mind, so keep an eye out for those. And don’t worry, you won’t have to wait over a month for the next post…

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The Gunslinger and my shitty attempt at Bob Dylan lyrics aka... random shit I love... pt. II

Like many people these days, I’m spending hours each day trying to get unemployment. It’s like trying to win the lottery just to get through on the line. Yesterday, I finally got through! Only to be told I filed my initial claim incorrectly, though I followed the websites instruction to a t, and I had to be transferred to someone else to cancel that claim their own website told me to create. Of course, the transfer went nowhere and I was once again back to playing the phone lottery. Which is nicer than the real lottery as it costs me nothing to “play” as it is just a once every ten or fifteen minutes phone call that ultimately is disconnected because of high call volumes. I get it. There’s millions of people like me trying to make this thing work. But, it seems like offering assistance that many aren’t able to get is such a fucking tease. Plus, with North Carolina’s rich history of trying to keep people from getting unemployment in the first place, I figured this would be a long shot to begin with. But, as I’ve never had to do anything like this before, I had no idea what to expect. My sister, who was eligible since the beginning of the pandemic, told me it took her over a month to finally get through and get it all figured out, and she’s back in Wisconsin where they are much more liberal in providing assistance.

I feel bad for the customer service reps as I’m sure people are frustrated and pissed off when they finally get through. I hope people are excited and thankful when they finally hear that voice on the line but given the news these days that people are marching around with fucking grenade launchers (true story from here in North Carolina) to protest God-knows-what because a virus has nothing to do with guns (or grenade launchers, for that matter), I somehow doubt gratitude is the main thing being expressed. Again, I say this fully realizing there are millions just like me, wanting for a lifeline that exists but we still aren’t allowed to have. Hold on a sec, time for another call… Nope, nothing. Disconnected again…

But, fuck that shit. I’m tired of bad news. So, let’s do something else. Last week, I announced that MY MUSIC IS GOING TO BE IN A VIDEO GAME and I professed my love for NASCAR and WWE wrestling. That’s some random shit for a “sensitive musician,” I realize. Well, here’s some more of my favorite things that maybe you already know or maybe you wouldn’t expect (or maybe didn’t really care to know). Here’s a couple people that changed my life in a very meaningful way. I wanted to really give some insight into ol’ Bradley Wik. So, here we go…

#1 - Brett Favre

So, I know he’s been back in the news for a not great reason lately. Reportedly, he took some money from the state of Mississippi for some appearances that got cancelled or were never made and now he has to pay the money back. He says he didn’t do anything wrong but who knows. I don’t really care and that’s not why we’re talking about him right now.

As I’VE TALKED ABOUT PREVIOUSLY, sports was a savior of sorts for me. Back when I was a kid, I had some trouble fitting in and always felt like I didn’t quite belong with the other kids. I had issues with my teachers and fellow students, which I was usually able to get out of due to my good grades, my ability to talk my way out of things, which, really means talking until the other person can’t take it anymore and gives up, and because of my supportive mom, who always had my back. Those issues included being highly disruptive in class (usually because I was bored, as it was easier for me to just learn the material from reading ahead so I could then tune out the teachers as they went on and on. Some teachers really didn’t like this, apparently), fighting (including one epic fight that included over twenty boys and had been organized/negotiated days in advance), refusing to go to class with certain teachers, and on and on; you know, the usual. I realize now, much of this was due to the Asperger’s. School, for me, was too easy and boring and the social aspects of my Asperger’s were hard to identify. I had plenty of friends but sometimes was super awkward around other kids/teachers. I wasn’t hard to talk to, but often had nothing to say to people. Or, I had way too much to say to people. Unlike the other kids who, looking back, likely had Asperger’s as well (thinking of my two mates who also jumped up a couple grades in math and science with me…), I wasn’t clumsy or bad at sports. In fact, it was the opposite. I was actually pretty good.

So, sports became my safe space. It was OK for me to get super intense and competitive and release too much energy on those around me. It was OK for me to be hyper-obsessive about the sports I played. I didn’t need to be able to talk about feelings or life to those around me. It was OK to just talk about sports ad nauseam. It was a (semi) healthy way to experience those things that are often too extreme in regards to the other areas of my life. Yes, I was still told to tone it down sometimes but mostly I was able to be myself and no one judged me for it. Plus, for some reason, again, possibly the Asperger’s, I have to be obsessively passionate about something and sports were that thing for a long time.

OK, so where does Brett Favre fit in? Well, he was my first sports hero; and still my greatest sports hero to this day (second greatest overall as The Boss has taken over the top spot, which was also once held by Bob Dylan, see below). One of my earliest memories is of that fateful Packers-Bengals game back in ‘92, Favre’s first extended action and his first official comeback victory. It was a hot summer day back in Oconomowoc, WI. Our living room ceiling fan wasn’t working (or had to be replaced, I can’t remember which) but it was all in pieces and it was in the process of being repaired (or installed). We regularly watched the games on Sunday, but the Pack was generally lousy and it was usually just to wait to see how they blew another game. Majkowski had his one great season back in ‘89 (which was before my time) but otherwise just couldn’t stay healthy. So, I remember a collective groan when he got injured, again, during this Bengals game. In comes this baby-faced kid we had heard a lot about but hadn’t really done anything yet. In true Favre form, he came out swinging… and it was a disaster. A fumble, a near interception straight to a linebacker, another fumble, maybe even a third fumble. He couldn’t get out of his own way. Quickly, the game was over. It was like 20-3 or something. Then suddenly, the fourth quarter came around and we found ourselves in the endzone. How did that happen? Sterling Sharpe caught one of the TD’s from Favre and cracked a rib on the play, I believe, but kept playing. Then, Favre had two of the most amazing throws ever. First to Sharpe down the right sideline, who immediately rolled off because he HAD A FUCKING CRACKED RIB (which I’m sure the announcers called “getting the wind knocked out of him” or “had his bell rung” or something similarly idiotic because that’s just what we used to say for every injury/concussion) and then to some random guy named “Taylor” (who I don’t know for sure ever caught another pass in the NFL) for the game winning TD. It was incredible. At that moment, the entire state of Wisconsin was instantly energized. It was a new era for us and, most of all, we finally had our hope back. Hope is a very powerful thing.

So, why did I tell you all of that? Most of you probably didn’t care and, if you did, you can watch the game on YouTube or buy it from iTunes, like I have. But all that above was just my memory from before I rewatched the game, which only confirmed that somehow I still recalled it vividly after 28 years. If you’re old enough and from Wisconsin, that moment is seared into your memory like the moon landing (which wasn’t real in 1969, sorry to tell you. But they did do a great job making it look good) or 9/11. You’ll never forget where you were, what happened and how it felt.

But, again, why did I tell you all of that? Because everything I love about Brett Favre is in that first comeback win. He was never afraid to take chances or to make mistakes. He never let his mistakes get him down. He was always ready to take the big shot. He was always having fun regardless of whether he was winning or losing. When the game was on the line, he wanted the ball in his hands and he was going to make the throw that either won or lost the game. He relished that responsibility. And he was never going to go down without a fight, no matter the odds.

I wanted to be like that. I still strive to be like that. I don’t always maintain my composure when things go awry and I can’t say I’m always having fun when things are going sideways, but I want to. In many ways, that game is like an allegory for my musical career. It started off rough. I had some natural talent with music, but no actual skills. I was shit at playing guitar and worse at singing (just ask my mom who had to endure hundreds of hours of terrible, a-dying-cat-trying-to-yodel type sounds, I’m sure). But, I kept fighting. Soon, I had stopped making so many mistakes but still wasn’t very effective. So, I took a few big shots. I moved to San Francisco, Seattle, New York City. I kept playing music in each city, learning so much and getting exponentially better. I had been the guitar player/backup in other bands but wanted my chance to start/put together my own band. So, I took another big shot and did. Some more rough spots but I always wanted that responsibility of being the one to win or lose the game/show. Then, I finally made a couple big throws/records and things started turning around. Soon, I was coming back for the win/hearing my songs on the radio and playing shows all over. Then, finally, after another long shot/moving to North Carolina, I was able to secure the win/become a full-time musician. Then, a worldwide pandemic broke out and negated that. But, fuck that part of the story, the rest is the good stuff. And, just like Favre, when this starts to subside, I’m ready for another comeback, baby.

And sure, we both have regrets. Me, I have parts/performances on my records I wish I could redo, shows I could replay, etc. Brett has not winning back to back Super Bowls after losing that Super Bowl they never should have lost and of which we do not speak of. OK, fine.. For those who don’t know what the hell I’m talking about, it was Super Bowl XXXII back in the 1997-98 season… Ewww, even just saying those words makes me sick. We’ve both struggled with addictions. We’ve both had other moments we wish to forget over the years but never let ‘em get us too down. I’ve always had the gunslinger inside me. Whether that’s been shown by never being afraid to go all out with my music even though I might stink it up sometimes or never being afraid to move across the country (I’m on move across the country #6, which should be the last…). Or, whether that’s shown by MAKING A RECORD THAT SOUNDS NOTHING LIKE ANYTHING I’VE EVER DONE, which required using a Moog synthesizer (which I did not know how to play when I bought it and had never touched before I started recording with it). A record that many people seem to not know what to do with yet. But, it’s really good, I assure you. Just give it some time. It even took Brianne a while to warm up to it. (Also, go back and read all the blogs, labeled NEW MUSIC, TRACK #1, TRACK #2, TRACK #3, TRACK #4, about the album and each track to see how much care and love went into it)

That’s why I love Brett Favre. Sure, I love the Super Bowl and all the other games he won for us. But mostly, I love the man and his spirit and what he represented to me. He is what I aspire to be. Maybe someday I’ll get there…

#2 - Bob Dylan

For #1, I listed my biggest sports hero of all-time. For #2, I actually went with the second most important musical figure in my life. As any reader of this blog knows, Bruce Springsteen is my biggest musical influence by far and his status towers over all others. In fact, as I wrote about before, the Boss is THE MAIN REASON I EVEN PLAY MUSIC. But, Bob Dylan is my sentimental choice because of when his music came into my life and why I fell in love with it so much. And probably also a little bit because Bruce himself wanted to be Dylan when he was younger. So, you know, we have that in common.

I was already in High School by the time I first listened to an actual Bob Dylan record. Sure, I had heard “Like a Rolling Stone” and “Mr. Tambourine Man” on the radio but that was probably my only exposure to Dylan previously; unless you count the horrible/silly impressions they would often do on “Who’s Line is it Anyway?” Much like “Born to Run,” “The Freewheelin’ Bob Dylan” unlocked something in my brain that I didn’t even know existed. “A Hard Rain’s A-Gonna Fall” was like nothing I had ever heard before. It was like poetry with some music thrown in for good measure. But, the interesting thing, and the thing I couldn’t figure out, was how he managed to take that poetry, which was steeped in seemingly random imagery that even he himself said didn’t always mean anything, and make it “feel” like emotions. It was baffling. It was magic.

Part of this fascination was definitely related to my own Asperger’s. I was/am mostly unable to understand or express my own emotions. Dylan showed me, without me even knowing it, a new way to do that. But, it was a way to do it subconsciously. I wasn’t actively exploring my emotions and thinking through them outwardly, but his music was allowing me to do that for me behind the scenes. I didn’t know it yet, but he was slowly teaching me how to express my feelings through music. Bruce had opened up that channel but Dylan was the first to really start to pull things out of me.

Slowly, I worked my way through his catalog in chronological order. Shortly after, I got to “Another Side of Bob Dylan” and my mind was officially blown. “Chimes of Freedom,” “My Back Pages” and “To Ramona” took that idea of poetry and imagery with a side of music to a whole other level. But, you could tell the man was just getting started. Even he had a laugh with himself on the record. He knew what he was doing was brilliant.

His “big three” run was up next and about to take over my life. “Bringing It All Back Home,” “Highway 61 Revisited” and “Blonde on Blonde” brought a band into the mix (I still don’t understand why people were so angry about this. Fucking folk purists…) which turned everything up to eleven. The songwriting, somehow, got even better too. It was like watching Michael Jordan turn it on even more during a game just because he could. (side note: “The Last Dance” was really a good watch, though very obviously had to cater a ton to Michael to get him to do it in the first place. But, one of the things that irked me is how everyone talked about how he gave it 100% during each game but could always go up a notch if he felt slighted or wanted to prove something, which literally means he didn’t give 100% every night. I’m not saying he dogged it the other nights but despite hearing it at least a million times, no one can actually give 110%…) I remember the first time I listened to “Blonde on Blonde” I almost had a anxiety attack. It was actually too much for me to take in in one sitting. I had to listen to it like I was listening to the vinyl version, I had to take a break after “Just Like a Woman” and come back to the second record in a bit (it’s a double album on vinyl, with side D being just the epic, 11+ minute opus “Sad-Eyed Lady of the Lowlands.” Such a badass way to close it out).

After hearing all this, I knew I wanted to start writing. I still didn’t really play much music but I started writing poetry, very ripped-off-from-Dylan type poetry, aka shitty Dylan lyrics. I was basically repurposing his songs to try and say something about myself. I stole all the imagery, the “night watchmen” (from “Visions of Johanna”), “Sweet Marie” (from “Absolutely Sweet Marie”), “John the Baptist” and “Gypsy Davey” (from “Tombstone Blues”), the “Fortune Telling Lady” (from “Desolation Row”), and on and on. I probably thought I was being so clever, knowing most people didn’t know Dylan lyrics like the back of their hand. I remember getting some really good praise in my creative writing/poetry class, which probably wasn’t quite deserved looking back on it.

But, the most important thing was that I felt like I was finally communicating something to the outside world. I took offense to any and all critiques (like most teenagers do) because the words I wrote weren’t just words. Like most teenager’s poetry, it was me trying to express something I didn’t quite understand myself. But, instead of the typical Emily Dickinson style sadness, mine came out through “motorcycle black madonnas,” and “ceremonies of the horsemen.” I couldn’t understand or articulate when I was feeling anxious, sad, fearful, joyful, in love, etc., but I did know how I felt when I heard words like:

And Madonna, she still has not showed

We see this empty cage now corrode

Where her cape of the stage once had flowed

The fiddler, he now steps to the road

He writes ev'rything's been returned which was owed

On the back of the fish truck that loads

While my conscience explodes

The harmonicas play the skeleton keys and the rain

And these visions of Johanna are now all that remain

That I could feel. That made sense to me. Without knowing exactly what he was trying to say, I felt I understood this better than when my friends would tell me how they were feeling. That made no sense. I couldn’t figure out the simplicity of a 14 year old boy pining the loss of “the love of his life,” aka a 14 year old girl, but

Across the street they've nailed the curtains

They're getting ready for the feast

The Phantom of the Opera A perfect image of a priest

They're spoonfeeding Casanova

To get him to feel more assured

Then they'll kill him with self-confidence

After poisoning him with words

And the Phantom's shouting to skinny girls "Get Outa Here If You Don't Know

Casanova is just being punished for going To Desolation Row"

made perfect sense to my brain. I could feel that. I could empathize with those fictional characters. Those were not things I could do in real life. I remember times when I would get all teary at the end of “Sad-Eyed Lady of the Lowlands.” That’s how impactful Dylan’s words were on me. Half (or more) of them seemingly made no sense but meant more to me than almost any real life words I could hear.

I think it’s pretty common for people’s art and culture intake to influence them in a very meaningful way because, especially when we’re younger, we don’t know how to feel what we’re feeling. Art gives us the ability to use someone else’s revelation to inform ourselves. Like a lot of things though, I feel this is ramped up in people with Asperger’s/autism, like me. Dylan allowed me a space to begin to feel things in a meaningful way. I had read other poetry and it just didn’t do what Dylan could do. Even though I started by just writing shitty, ripped off versions of Dylan lyrics, I knew that adding music would amplify this effect. I needed to finally learn how to play the damn guitar and Dylan was a great motivating factor in that. Shit, some of his early work would just have a few repetitive chords. I thought I could manage that. Springsteen was still a god, but there was no way I could pick up a guitar I could barely play and pen “Jungleland.” But, I could learn the G, C, D and Em chords and speak sing some (terrible) poetry over the top. That seemed achievable to me.

The Boss may have been the original reason I wanted to play music, but his music seemed like too lofty a goal. Where was I gonna find a pianist AND an organist AND a saxophone player in my tiny town of 3000 in rural Wisconsin? But, I did have that old acoustic guitar in the closet (a Harmony I bought out of the JcPenney’s catalog with the lawn mowing money I saved up) and bunches of this poetry just waiting for those few simple chords to really take ‘em to the next level. That I could do. So, I was off and running (well, stumbling and falling but getting back up again each time). I think I still have some recordings somewhere on old cassettes as I had a small recorder I used to carry around with me all the time. I wish I could post one for y’all but I don’t have anything to play cassettes with currently. You’d probably get a laugh at it so maybe I’ll hunt down an old boombox or something so I can post something someday.

But, Dylan eventually convinced me I had to move to New York City, which I’m also grateful for. Like I said, if Springsteen did it, then I needed to do it too. New York turned out to be my favorite place in the world and those were some of my happiest years. And I even got to play folk music at the Cafe Wha? with my good buddy Mr. Jon Fickes. Probably the first time folk music had been played there in like 40 years. It’s a funny story of how that happened but that’s for another day. There’s even proof of this:

Singer / Songwriter Bradley Wik performs with R.I.S.E. @ Cafe Wha. Monday May 19th 2008

I sort of regret, though not really, that I had decided to play everything in an alternate guitar tuning I barely knew how to use. I was really into Dylan’s “Blood on the Tracks” album at that time, which is my favorite album of his, and he used this open-D tuning on there, so I had to as well. I think I remember fucking up a few chords since I had just learned them like a week before this. But, you can hear me doing my best Bob Dylan impression with some very Bob Dylan influenced lyrics (see photo below). Enjoy!

For the record, the last Dylanesque song I ever wrote/recorded was on my first album (“Burn What You Can, Bury the Rest…”). If you somehow missed it, take a close listen to the lyrics of “She Will Never Return to Me” (video below) and you’ll hear references to painting “a silver ghost on a broken window sill,” ” “poets with bells in their shoes,” and other very Dylan-y type imagery.

"She Will Never Return to Me" from "Burn What You Can, Bury the Rest..." performed LIVE by Bradley Wik

Until next time… Keep a good head and always carry a lightbulb…

(dictated but not read)

The lyrics to the song, “The Undertaker’s Poem,” from the video above, typed out on my trusty Royal Quiet DeLuxe…

The lyrics to the song, “The Undertaker’s Poem,” from the video above, typed out on my trusty Royal Quiet DeLuxe…

some music for drunken fools such as i... aka come on a musical journey with me

Hello, friends. Fuck off, douches. And let's play some fucking music! I know I've been kind of a downer lately on here, so I'd like to rectify that by giving you the greatest gift of all, music. Maybe you know all these tunes, maybe you'll find something new, but either way let's go on this journey together. Literally, gonna just pull what I'm listening to in order as I write this. Here we go... (see Spotify playlist at bottom if you'd like to play along)

1. "TV Party" - Black Flag

I know, a drinking playlist and I opted for "TV Party" over "Six Pack," what the fuck? Well, honestly it's because I'm literally going to have a one-man TV Party later tonight. AS I MENTIONED RECENTLY, NewsRadio is online for the first time I've ever seen so I'm plowing through them all again in rapid succession. What a fucking joy to experience these for the, oh, I don't know, maybe 20th time but still. I'm loving every minute of it! But for now I have some pent up energy and need something to rock out to.

2. "Wish upon the Weather" - Altameda

This band is growing on me, hard. Just like my penis while watching Charlize Theron in "2 Days in the Valley." Someone recommended them like a year ago and I was tepid at best with my reaction. Like, look, we get it. Ryan Adams' "Gold" was a great album. But some of the lines in here "Maybe I lost the map, maybe I'm better off without it. Maybe everything I had, well, maybe I'm better off without that." Lord knows there's large parts of my life that I'd be better off without. Or would I? That's where music comes from, so I guess I'm better off with them. But they are why I drink too much and can't sleep some nights, so... But they allow me to continually write new music which brings me more joy than anything, so... Maybe... I don't know, but this is too deep for being only two bourbons in. Maybe I'm back to fuck you Altameda... Nah, this tune is too much fun. But these guys to remind me of another band that I can't quite think of...

3. "Woman in Rust" - Silver Torches

Just kidding, just remembered. These guys. It's a similar vibe I guess, I'm not sure why these two bands seem similar in my brain but they do. I think it's the way they make me feel. But this song is a perfect road trip song if you've got one coming up. Just smooth and pretty and gets you into another world for two and a half minutes.

4. "Tokyo Sunrise" - LP

Speaking of road trip songs. I once listened to this song for four hours straight on a trip coming back from Spokane, WA. It blew my mind and I couldn't get enough. The vocal is fucking insane. Just fucking insane. I had friends who claimed it had to be fake or "studio-ed" until they saw a live video and their minds blew. That voice coming from a tall, female, Bob Dylan-looking muthafucker? Unreal.

5. "The Professor & La Fille Danse - Live" - Damien Rice

While we're on the topic of great singers. All three times I've seen Damien are in my top 10 live shows of all-time. He's my favorite performer, outside of Bruce Springsteen, of course and whenever he is touring (rarely), I drop everything to go see him. I once rescheduled one of my own shows to go see him. He's that good.

6. "Brandy Alexander" - Feist

Since we're on the topic of great live performers, goddamn, what a talented woman. I can't help but play this song whenever I'm getting drunk. And being three or four bourbons in, it's time.

7. "I am a Scientist" - Guided by Voices

OK, it's officially time to get all existential and wonder how someone else wrote this song when it's so clearly about me. Robert Pollard and I may have more in common than I thought. When he says "I am a lost soul, I shoot myself with Rock N' Roll. The hole I dig is bottomless but nothing else can set me free..." Fuck.

8. "It's All Over Now, Baby Blue - Live" - Bob Dylan, duh

It's officially time to get transported back in time. Every time I hear this live version, I'm immediately back to being 16 and listening to this on repeat trying to figure out what the fuck is going on and how that harmonica part works so fucking well with this version of this song. I love everything about this song and this performance. It's everything I love about Bob in a nutshell. The 25 going on 60 voice, the elaborate, extended harmonica solos, the vague, poetic lyrics that really don't mean much apart from creating such a vivid world we get to live in for nearly six minutes, the bravado of the performance, especially considering he knew he was about to be booed soon during his electric set, but also the tenderness of the performance, which outshines anything that could be recorded in a studio. Mmm. It's such a delicious recipe. Thank you, Bob.

(dictated but not read)

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